and random musings……..

Thursday, April 24, 2014

The Spider In The Corner

The spider in the corner of my bathroom
Has become a fixture I expect to see
He weaves his web of capture
With hopes of possibly catching me!

I can't bting myself to take tissue in hand
And flush him out to the sea
We’ve woven a kind of a friendship
The spider, the web …. and me.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

It's My Party....................

I was browsing through the online TV guide today and I remarked to Husband, “I’m so bored with TV lately!”
After I picked him up off the floor…..he turned to me with a concerned look on his face and said, “Who ARE you? And what have you done with my wife?”
“Why do you say that?” I asked.
He replied, “You’re bored with TV, even your old movies. You turned off Easter Parade for God’s sake! You sit and draw and sketch and paint contentedly for hours on end. Without shredding it and throwing it away. You even LIKE what you’ve done! You go OUTSIDE! Into the SUNSHINE! I repeat, who are you and what have you done with my wife?”

So I told him.

I stopped taking my antidepressants.

And it’s WONDERFUL!

Don’t worry, I wasn’t on them for mental issues (I know, surprising isn’t it?)
I was on them because one of the side effects is they diminish hot flashes.
But when I found myself lying in bed at noon looking for a reason to get up and the only thing I could think was, ‘why bother?’ I knew I had to do something.

I think the meds had a boomerang effect on me.
They were MAKING me depressed.
So I weaned myself off and suddenly I have FEELS.
So many FEELS.
I had feelings when I was on them but they were mostly depressing and lonely feelings.
Now I actually feel happy.
Without forcing it.
It’s just there!

I haven’t felt this good in years!
I also cry at the drop of a hat, but after feeling mostly nothing I’m enjoying those feeling too. (I might be the only person who cried the whole time through Billy Crystal’s ‘700 Sundays’ on HBO.)

But it’s better than feeling dull all the time, so I’ll take it.

And I’ll cry if I want to! (Sorry, I couldn’t help myself!)

Sunday, April 20, 2014

He Told Me His Name Is Hymie

He’s on his own after his family abandoned him.
I asked if I could do anything for him.
He said he’d really like a hat. So I took him shopping.
He was thinking of maybe getting pants too but as it turns out he’s not a jeans kind of guy.

Bermuda shorts don’t seem to be his style either! 




(thanks for the inspiration Corinne! ;)

Friday, April 18, 2014

HAPPY EASTER


I tried all week to come up with a 'cutesy' bunny but try as I might all I ever got were adolescent ones! LOL

Thursday, April 17, 2014

Playin'

Just felt like splashin' some watercolor around...virtually of course!  













Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Come Out, Come Out Wherever You Are…..

It took me most of the day yesterday but I finally convinced him to come out from behind the tree.
He’s still is too shy to speak to me so I don’t know his name yet.

I’ll keep trying to find out.