In Order To Get To Where You Want To Be, You Have To Know Where You Want To Go

It’s kind of a ‘Catch 22’ isn’t it?

In these first days of the New Year I find myself reflecting on where I want to take my art.

Problem is I have NO FREAKIN’ IDEA! 

I’m conflicted.

Do I want to really knuckle down and take a course on how to market myself? Do I want to spend more time on the computer, do the hard work and push my way into your mailbox?

Do I want to look for commissions?

Do I want to take more courses and join more groups?

Do I want to make more journals?

Or would I rather just draw?

I find myself flattered when asked for more of my art to sell at the galleries. On the other hand I find myself resentful of these requests. They take away time from what I WANT to do….whatever THAT is!

Ungrateful of me, I know!

I wonder if I really want to ‘be famous’ (you know what I mean…….. a name that is recognizable in the ever expanding ‘art world’ we’ve built here in cyberspace.)

The demands would increase and I wonder if it would be as fulfilling as I think it would be.

Or would I just become more resentful?

Could I teach classes? Either online or in person? What do I know that anyone would want to learn from me that they couldn’t just find on YouTube? (and then there’s the technical learning curve…..yikes!)

Would I be pigeonholed? Expected to always do the same things?

Would it bring me joy?

I watch some of the artists I admire. Authors, illustrators and art makers.

They go to conferences, teach art retreats, mingle and put themselves out there.

That makes me uncomfortable.

So, I think I’ll just stay here and do what I do.

Safe behind my monitor…….. just us.

The cozy little community we’ve formed.

I’m comfortable here.

I like it here.